Middle 2012

~Lalala~

Lalala. .
So what ?
Lalala. .
Just think.
Lalala. .
I never been like this before
Lalala. .
So what is it now?
Lalala. .
being under the glow
Lalala. .
It's not a risk i know
Lalala. .
Don't have a reason to do.
Lalala. .
It's me (again) to blame .
Lalala. .
This is a life line. .
Lalala. .
Don't worry and please .
Don't care about all of this.

Lalala
#please just ignore me. I'm in a really random mood.

untitled feeling

why do life come like this?
okay, i don't mean to blame life.
Maybe we should think that this is the wonderful thing we can say about life.
Life is ours, as long as we keep straight on our way.
Life is uneasy.
But it's not mean that we should give up our life.
Since the God gives us His Bless when we're born till now,
We should know that life is meaningful to us,
if we can take whatever happened in life patiently.

Hm, i realized that my mood-swinging is so fast, and i'm a teenager now.
So why i could say that we should think that life is wonderful?
Yeah, we should imagine if life is a colors we can see. We have red when we're angry, blue when we're calm and mellow, pink when we're in love, yellow when we're happy, green when we're caring, dark colors when we're sad, etc.

We can mix some colors in order to get a new color.
Our feeling sometimes can be mixed up too.
I found it hard to say what is it.
Is it angry, happy or anything?

We don't know what is it. So i decided to name it untitled feeling.
the kind of untitled feeling is very much. It's very random.
Sometimes we can be angry when we're happy, we're sad when we're angry, etc.

Well, i don't know what is the purpose for me to post this kind of post.
The language is messy and the point of this post is unimportant maybe.
hhh, sorry i'm just "galauing".

Back to life, to reality

I'm at school right now. Everyday, random things are come and gone.
Every problems need to be solved right on the time. Thats me. I dont like saving and canceling to solve a problem. That can make the right things messed up.

I found and hear everyones complaining about something in their life. Maybe that's make a human human.

I don't like to share my complain about anything.
Why?
Hm, i d k.
Maybe i'm feeling more safe if i keep my problems and secret alone.

Although i tell it to anyone, who will give a damn to it?
No one, i think.

So i feel it so useless to share my complaint.
But i know when i cant hold again the pressure, it'll go boom, will burst out tears and anger.

Yeah, i'm just wait for my heart complaint to grow huge and than, i release that the way i keep that.

2011 first entry :D

hi all ! >,<

since this year (2011) i haven't post anything right here on my blog
so i just feel want to post something. Yeah well, life's still never flat.
(chitato's commercial)

Just yesterday my school got the achievement in sports and arts competition,
that held every year here in Denpasar. We've got 1st on Sports and the 2nd on the arts (PORJAR & PSR)! YAYY ! :D
Yeah till yesterday i still got so much things to do before today.
Okay maybe i'm too excessive with my word cause actually i'm not one of the athlete's
or the artist's or the other 'panitia'(i don't know what's the english of it)
that really busy and tired to keep our school achievement. And they really done the best from the start of competition until the competition is ended yesterday.

I'm just one part of school organization that in touch with religious, so we preparing anything that have a connection with praying.


well okay, i just can give a VERY BERRY MERRY HUGE APPLAUSE for all of my school's students, especially for they that really feel the competition and keep doing the best till the end.

CONGRATS MY SCHOOL ! CONGRATS SMANSA ! KEEP OUR SCHOOL PROUD !

Okay, Back again. Face it !

Yeah, we can't run away from Life.
So, this is me, with all of my weakness,
trying to face the life.
Yeah all I need is willingness,
but the problems sure not as easy as it seems
I've felt it before,
continuously and stop at anytime
also begin with another.

When I seek for happiness,
I found it just too close.
Why I didn't even recognize and trap my feeling before growing randomly everywhere.
So, couples of day since I thought,
The best part of life is life.
The worst part of life is nothing if we can face it.
Life is Life.
SO THIS IS MY lIFE :))

And then, they're gone...

I don't know, why...
But I think that I felt alone. AGAIN
Why? Oh I don't know.
Maybe they didn't recognize me.
Yeah, I'm nobody.

They shouldn't care of me.
I'm just a waste for them, maybe.
And this is all I got after everything.
Every single days, time, memories and hope.
It's not what i want.

But that's mean I'm nothing.
I'm all alone now.

Well, whatever. Nobody needs me.

Hola everybody !

I'm in quick holiday (again)
so sorry that i can't manage my time as well
and now, i redecorate my blog with new theme :)

I hope you all like it especially my lovely blog *hug my blog*
Blog : You are crazy and weird creature you know? *sob*
Me : Forgive me pleaseeee T.T
BLog : Say, you forget me, right?
Me : Now way, you're my special blog

*well, don't take serious of this stupid jokes*

Oh, yeah the song.
You belong with me is me and my chair-mate favorite song. We used to sing it together in the class, hahaha.
Although we doing exam, i mean drawing exam, we sing it with slow voices.

Oh yeah, She and I got some same-thing. Our Birthdate is same ! From the day, the month and the year, ahahaha
In XI grade, I have 3 twins. My chair-mate (sit beside me), the person who sit behind me, and my school-mate.

Ahahahahahaha. It's not funny, but i think it's special to know other's birthday is same with us XD

well i just can post this for the warming up :)
Please leave comment, if you want :)

Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me

Yeah, somehow i'm addicted to this song, don't know why.
But I i think like Taylor Swift's song, coz it's all not a fake
It's real and it's near by us. Like this song. I know it happen somewhere,
although it's not me :) Please Enjoy ! I take this from http://www.lyricsmode.com

You Belong With Me

You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
you belong with me, you belong with me

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say you're fine, I know you better than that
Hey, what ya doing with a girl like that?

She wears high heels, I wear sneakers
She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

Oh, I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry
And I know your favorite songs and you tell me 'bout your dreams
Think I know where you belong, think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?
You belong with me

Haikei Juugo no Kimi e - Angela Aki

This is a song that sang by Angela Aki. It's very sweet~~
U can download it at 4shared.com

This is the romaji lyric and the translated lyric. Enjoy !

Haikei Juugo no Kimi e - Angela Aki

Haikei kono tegami yonde iru anata wa dokode nani o shite iru no darou

Juugo no boku ni wa dare ni mo hanasenai nayami no tane ga aru no desu

Mirai no jibun ni atete kaku tegami nara
Kitto sunao ni uchi akerareru darou

Ima make sou de naki sou de kiete shimai sou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba o shinji arukeba ii no?
Hitotsu shikanai kono mune ga nando mo barabara ni warete
Kurushii naka de ima o ikite iru
Ima o ikite iru

Haikei arigatou juugo no anata ni tsutaetai koto ga aru no desu

Jibun to wa nani de doko e mukau beki ka toi tsudzukereba miete kuru

Areta seishun no umi wa kibishii keredo
Asu no kishibe e to yume no fune yo susume

Ima makenaide nakanaide kiete shimai sou na toki wa
Jibun no koe o shinji arukeba ii no
Otona no boku mo kizutsuite nemurenai yoru wa aru kedo
Nigakute amai ima o ikite iru

Jinsei no subete ni imi ga aru kara osorezu ni anata no yume o sodatete
la,la,la
Keep on believing
la,la,la,

Make sou de naki sou de kiete shimai sou na boku wa
Dare no kotoba o shinji arukeba ii no?
Aa makenaide nakanaide kiete shimai sou na toki wa
Jibun no koe o shinji arukeba ii no
Itsu no jidai mo kanashimi o sakete wa tourenai keredo
Egao o misete ima o ikite ikou
Ima o ikite ikou

Haikei kono tegami yonde iru anata ga
Shiawase na koto o negaimasu




Translated One :


Dear you who are reading this letter: I wonder where you are and what you’re doing.
15-year-old me has worries that I can’t talk to anyone else about.
If I write this letter to my future self, surely I will be able to honestly
and openly express myself.

Whose words should I believe now, when I’m on the edge of losing, on the brink of tears,
and on the verge of disappearing?
When this heart that I only have one of is constantly being broken to pieces?
When I’m living through these difficult years?

Dear 15-year-old you, thank you for you letter.
I have some things that I’d like to say to you.
If you keep asking yourself “in which direction should I head?”
the answer will come to youThe rough seas of adolescence are harsh,
but the ship of your dreams will continue to the riverbank of tomorrow

And when you don’t want to lose, to cry, when you don’t want to disappear,
believe in your own voice.
And even the adult me has times when I get hurt,
even has sleepless nights, but life is bittersweet.

There is meaning to the entirety of one’s life,
so follow your dreams without unease; keep on believing.

Whose words should I believe now, when I’m on the edge of losing,
on the brink of tears, and on the verge of disappearing? When you don’t want to lose,
to cry, when you don’t want to disappear, believe in your own voice. And whatever your age,
sorrow can’t always be avoided, but I now try to live my life showing my smiling face.

Dear you who are reading this letter,
I wish good things for you.

source : http://www.awh.org/2008/10/11/song-translation-tegami-haikei-juugo-no-kimi-he/

Well, somehow i feel very nice after hear this song :)

Hello. . .Remember me?

Me : Well, my blog didn't get any attention from me. Sorry *hiks* . Please don't be NGAMBUL , my blog :(

the blog : . . .Beepbeepbeep (i'm not a ngambulers, you know)

me : =.=" okay, now about my world?

The blog : beepbeepbeep. . .(i dunno, its up 2 u)

me : well. . ., wait a minute. "Beep"? Since when did u become like a machine? -a robot? ><

the blog : beepbeepbeep. . .(dont ask me. Since when you understand robot language?)

me : err. . .Well, i should go now, bye ! *run away, escaping her self*

the blog : hh~ what a weird creature of a human being. . .

~The end~

i'm getting mad

arrrrrggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

what the....
I can't change my blog template !!!!
I really wanna change it, but the setting said that i can't!
oh yeah, by the way, i've just got a modem...
fyuhhh
so i didn.t have to go to internet cafe anymore!!!
but, i really don't understand why i cant change this blog's templateeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! RAWRRRR !!!!!! anyone can help me? Please!

i'm back :DD

hello,
yeah. one word that i can said to tell u how seniorhighschool life goes. busy.

and also, that's the reason why i seldom update my blog. hh. . .to much homework, trouble, things to do, exams, that's the things that make me stressed. to much thinking and can't be "cuek" is also the reason why. araaahh ! and i've just joined s.o.g in smansa. yeah, that's fun. well, i think thats all for now

Hello, how are u? :)

Yeah, i'm too busy since in senior high school. And also too busy to update this blog. Ergh. . .Ups sorry, my stomatch is too full,wkwkwk.

Well, i feel so many things happened while the time pass us. I feel so much everyday and my mood change easily. . .I know. Sometimes i feel really bad as a human, as a friend, as a junior, as anything as i am. Hhh. . .

I feel uncomfortable with this all. But i can't tell this to anyone. Because i don't know what is the name of this uncomfort feeling. But yeah, my SHS day also have many funny and lovely things. . .I know my life is colorful with this. And i'll try to throw out all the bad things around me. I hope i'll be a good human and kick away any bad side. Sadhu3x, amin, thx god. >.<

Ingin kulihat dia tersenyum lagi.

Aku sedih, aku bingung, aku lelah.

Aku tak mau menyakiti dia. Namun, aku tak mau menghianati kepercayaan mereka. Entah perasaan apa ini namanya. Sungguh menyakitkan untukku.

Menurutku, dia adalah sosok yang lucu dan sangat menghibur. Membuatku bisa menghapus masa lalu. Aku tak mau menyakitinya. Aku ingin sekali, melihat dia yang selalu bisa membuatku tertawa dengan segala tingkah lakunya. . . Aku ingin melihatnya tersenyum seperti dulu lagi. Aku tak suka melihatnya bersedih. Aku tak nyaman melihat dia yang menutupi dirinya dariku. Sebenarnya aku tak mengerti. Apa maksud hatiku ini. Dan aku juga tak bisa, menceritakannya pada siapapun. Aku bingung. Semuanya terlalu membuatku bingung.


Aku selalu menjaga kepercayaan mereka terhadap diriku. Dan aku ingin terus menjaga kepercayaan itu. Namun aku heran, disaat aku sangat butuh mereka, ya, memang mereka ada, tapi segalanya malah terasa rancu. Aku lelah berada di dunia. Karena aku merasa aku tak punya siapapun, karena aku merasa aku bukan siapa2. Aku ingin menolong diriku sendiri tapi aku belum bisa. Aku belum mampu.


Maaf beribu maaf. Aku benar2 tak ingin menyakitimu. Batinku akan terluka melihatmu tersakiti. Namun aku tetap tak bisa menghianati mereka. . .


. . . . . . . . . .

everything about my life since the last time updated this blog.

i cross my senior high day with test, task, test, task, and more test and task. U,yeah, i forgot 2 tell u bout 'GKS XIII'

Yeah, thats a kind of art show by the students of smansa due to the school birthday. There were so much student participate and should take many dispen. The students very2 excited bout GKS. And for the 13th gks, our school invited nidji, rocketrockers, tolbandtol. And operet by teater angin smansa, dance by capoiera smansa, fashion show by smansa model, kpa mandala giri in action, etc. Thats very2 interesting and make the 10th grade, like me as the new comers waits and daydreamed about gks.

But in gks day, i went home b4 all the show finished. I even didn't watch nidji live in action! And also the operet! This make me so sad...but i can do nothing. TT

Next year, i want to watch gks till end! Amin!

2 B continued

GeJe

Cuma prasaanku aja ato memang blog ini makin geje? Wkwkwk. . .Kayakny memang ni blog geje dari awal,deh. . .Yah, karena udah terlanjur, jadi kulanjudkan saja ke-GeJe-an blog ini. Bbrapa hari lalu, udah pembagian kelas permanen (tesnya gila. . .Terutama mathnya). Dan ternyata, aku dapet kelas X.5. . .Bareng Riri~ syalalalala /ohlalala. . .

Tapi pisah dari tmen2 di ALVERONE. . .TT
harusnya ada acara manggang2 di rumah adit hari ini. . .Tp aq gag bisa dateng. . .DX what the. . .
Kmaren HUT RI ke 64, jadi kelasny bru mule hari ini. Dan plajaran pertama yaitu. . .OLAHRAGA. . .Untungny gag jadi lari aerobik di GOR. . .Fyuh. . .XD

oiya, 17 agustus it juga ultahnya Kiss~1. . .Calon anggota angkatan 29, ngisi acara musikalisasi puisi. . .Lgunya D'masiv yang Jangan menyerah. . .Lumayan sukses menurutku. . .Tapi gag bisa ngikutin acara dari awal. . .DX dan gag liat bgian akhir acara. . .DX
habisnya keburu di jemput. . .Pdhal bru aja mau liat yg laen. . .DX

oke. . .Post kali ini sgini dulu,ya. . . :)

- -a

Ma' lovely blog, you're my one and only diary right now. And i just love to write anything on my blog. But sometimes, i realize something. I can't write all of my problem and my happiness. I'm happy with this blog, although I manage it badly xP. But there's many things, which are very complicated. Hope it won't be too long to be complicate. Maybe you'll ask, what is that? Hahaha. . .Don't try to ask question like that, or I'll kill you. . .Bwahahahah. . . Kidding, friend. . .Just need more time, and that can be (maybe) revealed. . .Oh yeah? Just wait and watch for the next scene ! BTW, BBF is on indosiar every afternoon. . .XD so i can watch it without waiting the midnight show. . .XDXDXD. . .Oh please. . .Oh YEAH ! :)

Oh God, i'm confused

Oh god. . ., i really get confused with this all. I never thought about this before. Its really make me crazy and make my mood unstable. I didn't understand. I hate to be like this. If i can't get rid or get entertain of it, how could i feel enjoyable to cross anything? I didn't want to be like this. I want to know the real facts. I want to know the most real facts about that. Don't make me feel that there is any chance, if there's nothing left. If there's someone, who get the chance, and if it's not me, i want to know the facts. I don't wanna keep this anxious feeling, or this miserable feeling, just wanna have merry and joyful memories. Oh god, Isn't that is a simple one?Oh Please. Please. Please... Just tell me the facts, with your smiling face, if there's any chance for me to be there. . .For me To be there. . .Just to be there. . .


Welcome to the next GeJe Post! And bye!

KISS~1 AND SYRC

Nah, like what i've said b4, i'll introduce my extracurricular...
first of all, KISS~1 Dps (kelompok ilmiah siswa sma negeri 1 denpasar)
wuahahah...i think, kinda excited with this ekskul bcoz...i dunno...just excited. :p
the 2nd is...SYRC (smansa youth red cross) or usually called PMR in indonesia. wew...i'm kinda excited too. But, both of the ekskul have same schedule. so i have to divide my time. it's not a big trouble, bcoz some of my senior joined with those two ekskul...thanx god! OH NO, THE LIMIT.