Middle 2012

~Lalala~

Lalala. .
So what ?
Lalala. .
Just think.
Lalala. .
I never been like this before
Lalala. .
So what is it now?
Lalala. .
being under the glow
Lalala. .
It's not a risk i know
Lalala. .
Don't have a reason to do.
Lalala. .
It's me (again) to blame .
Lalala. .
This is a life line. .
Lalala. .
Don't worry and please .
Don't care about all of this.

Lalala
#please just ignore me. I'm in a really random mood.

untitled feeling

why do life come like this?
okay, i don't mean to blame life.
Maybe we should think that this is the wonderful thing we can say about life.
Life is ours, as long as we keep straight on our way.
Life is uneasy.
But it's not mean that we should give up our life.
Since the God gives us His Bless when we're born till now,
We should know that life is meaningful to us,
if we can take whatever happened in life patiently.

Hm, i realized that my mood-swinging is so fast, and i'm a teenager now.
So why i could say that we should think that life is wonderful?
Yeah, we should imagine if life is a colors we can see. We have red when we're angry, blue when we're calm and mellow, pink when we're in love, yellow when we're happy, green when we're caring, dark colors when we're sad, etc.

We can mix some colors in order to get a new color.
Our feeling sometimes can be mixed up too.
I found it hard to say what is it.
Is it angry, happy or anything?

We don't know what is it. So i decided to name it untitled feeling.
the kind of untitled feeling is very much. It's very random.
Sometimes we can be angry when we're happy, we're sad when we're angry, etc.

Well, i don't know what is the purpose for me to post this kind of post.
The language is messy and the point of this post is unimportant maybe.
hhh, sorry i'm just "galauing".

Back to life, to reality

I'm at school right now. Everyday, random things are come and gone.
Every problems need to be solved right on the time. Thats me. I dont like saving and canceling to solve a problem. That can make the right things messed up.

I found and hear everyones complaining about something in their life. Maybe that's make a human human.

I don't like to share my complain about anything.
Why?
Hm, i d k.
Maybe i'm feeling more safe if i keep my problems and secret alone.

Although i tell it to anyone, who will give a damn to it?
No one, i think.

So i feel it so useless to share my complaint.
But i know when i cant hold again the pressure, it'll go boom, will burst out tears and anger.

Yeah, i'm just wait for my heart complaint to grow huge and than, i release that the way i keep that.

2011 first entry :D

hi all ! >,<

since this year (2011) i haven't post anything right here on my blog
so i just feel want to post something. Yeah well, life's still never flat.
(chitato's commercial)

Just yesterday my school got the achievement in sports and arts competition,
that held every year here in Denpasar. We've got 1st on Sports and the 2nd on the arts (PORJAR & PSR)! YAYY ! :D
Yeah till yesterday i still got so much things to do before today.
Okay maybe i'm too excessive with my word cause actually i'm not one of the athlete's
or the artist's or the other 'panitia'(i don't know what's the english of it)
that really busy and tired to keep our school achievement. And they really done the best from the start of competition until the competition is ended yesterday.

I'm just one part of school organization that in touch with religious, so we preparing anything that have a connection with praying.


well okay, i just can give a VERY BERRY MERRY HUGE APPLAUSE for all of my school's students, especially for they that really feel the competition and keep doing the best till the end.

CONGRATS MY SCHOOL ! CONGRATS SMANSA ! KEEP OUR SCHOOL PROUD !

Okay, Back again. Face it !

Yeah, we can't run away from Life.
So, this is me, with all of my weakness,
trying to face the life.
Yeah all I need is willingness,
but the problems sure not as easy as it seems
I've felt it before,
continuously and stop at anytime
also begin with another.

When I seek for happiness,
I found it just too close.
Why I didn't even recognize and trap my feeling before growing randomly everywhere.
So, couples of day since I thought,
The best part of life is life.
The worst part of life is nothing if we can face it.
Life is Life.
SO THIS IS MY lIFE :))

And then, they're gone...

I don't know, why...
But I think that I felt alone. AGAIN
Why? Oh I don't know.
Maybe they didn't recognize me.
Yeah, I'm nobody.

They shouldn't care of me.
I'm just a waste for them, maybe.
And this is all I got after everything.
Every single days, time, memories and hope.
It's not what i want.

But that's mean I'm nothing.
I'm all alone now.

Well, whatever. Nobody needs me.